New Years 2009 almost here!

Well! It's been another busy week for us! It's been a crazy month, December. and it's over tomorrow! Today Chris and I went to Augusta with Joshua to spend our Christmas gift cards on things for us/the apartment. I got a total of like 8 shirts and a pair of pants, he got a pair of pants... and we got the essentials we needed for our home: a microwave stand for the new microwave [thanks Rick & Rachel!], a few things for the desk in the front room [yeah, we moved it from the office, which is now Joshua's room!], mixing bowls, wine glasses, a few cute plastic bowls for Joshua, a teapot, and more hangers. 

Things have been pretty near perfect. There's a true connection between us that I wouldn't trade for the world. He said it best tonight when we were driving home from dropping the baby off at my mom's for the evening, he said that he likes that we can just be together, not doing anything, or not talking but doing our own things [i.e, last night he was playing video games and I was knitting on the couch], and just enjoy the time together. We've both never really had that before to the extent that we have fun doing nothing at all. We don't always need to be talking, but just relaxing and taking in the time we get to spend together. It's really something special. Falling asleep and waking up in his arms for every night for the last month+ has been amazing, and I know that moving in this week has only improved our relationship. We are so strong right now that I couldn't imagine us being stronger, but I do say this everyday. Quite like I say I couldn't be more in love with him, but everytime I say that I fall more and more. It's crazy! But I love every second of it! He is the half that makes me whole and my best friend here with me --love you Kiwi & Bethy, now come home so we can all be besties--

tonight we are spending the night in, just us. we're going to watch some Grey's until around 1130, then put on the NYE special and watch the ball drop together. I thoroughly enjoy every moment I spend with Christopher, and I look forward to many many many more happy years together!!! Hope everyone has a great NYE and stay safe and good luck in 2009!

loves!

And Christmas has passed...

Oh boy! What a Christmas! It was filled with so much love and laughter and joy and tons of FAMILY! Here's a recap...

Christmas Eve day we spent a bit of time with Chris's family, in the afternoon, and then headed out to my mom's. We got all the gifts together and headed over to the Tibbett's for our usual Christmas eve festivities. We ate, played with Joshua and Grady [Pete & Cara's little boy thats 4 months older than Joshua], opened gifts and enjoyed eachothers company as always. Joshua got so many cute toys! And Chris and I got movie tickets, a gift card to wal-mart, and I got some lotion and chapstick as well. It was a good time! Then we headed back to Skowhegan and got settled in for the night and waited on Santa Clause... Christmas morning we headed to Chris's parents [Rick & Rachel] around 815... we ate cinnamon rolls and drank LOTS of red drink! haha. Then Gram & Gramp [Rachel's parents] came over and we all gathered around the tree so Sophia and Poppa could hand out gifts! That was a fun time as well, as predicted. Joshua, again, got so many great toys! Thanks so much guys for spoiling him!! And not to brag or anything, but Chris & I had a great Christmas gift wise too.. Chris got from me a Giants shirt, a Boston Red Sox bobble head, a new North Face sweatshirt, a sweater and some new cologne. From Chris I got an outfit from American Eagle, a sweater, Grey's Anatomy seasons 2 &3, and.. oh yeah, UGGS! Finally I own a pair of Uggs! haha. From his parents I got a Bath & Body Works Warm Vanilla Sugar gift set, and from his sister a gift card to Target and some knitting supplies! After Christmas morning we headed out to Sidney to my Aunt Shelia & Aunt Jeans house to do my family Christmas with my mom's entire family! We were super busy!! We had lunch and opened gifts, which took nearly 2 hours - there was like 15 of us! Joshua got more new toys, which he loves so much! I got tons of gift cards and some money as well, which is always helpful!

But more importantly, we had an amazing Christmas being able to spend time together and with our families. I've never been in love like I am with Christopher, and I hope this feeling lasts a lifetime. I can't wait to finish moving in, to really start our life living together. He amazes me more & more everyday!! I am the luckiest girl in the world!!

Hope everyone had a great Holiday Season!

Loves!

standing cold and scared on top of blue hill...

Oh man! Today has been a day! It's so close to Christmas I can't believe it :)

So I went to Wal Mart today, not listening to the wonderful advised my someday-in-law's had given me that it was hell there and it took them forever to get out, I ended up being there way too long! I originally just went to grab the pictures I had printed off for Christmas gifts for family, and I ran into 1093028409 people I know. Okay, not that many, but a couple people from high school, a couple teachers, and then decided "Oh, well, I guess it would be nice to get my haircut today..." So I cut 4 inches off my hair and got the rest of it layered, I think it looks good but we will see when Christopher get's home from work -- he still has  NO IDEA! haha. Oh man. I had just left him, we had lunch at Quizno's because he worked today as usual and I joined him on his lunch break. Quizno's the place of our first meal together, so cute. Haha. Anywho, I think we are just about done our Christmas shopping finally. We really only have to get giftcards now for my parents and his sister and brother-in-law and a few frames for the rest of my family, then we will be done. We are running to Wal Mart when he gets out of work at 830, hopefully at that point it will have slowed down a bit! haha.

Joshua talked so much today! We were riding in the car and every 30 seconds I heard "ba, ma, gah, ba, gah, la , ka" in the backseat. I tried to keep him going but sometimes when I get involved he shut up, so I just let him "sing" along with the music! It's so cute! We also ran into his real fathers parents at Marden's, I'm really glad they got to see him, since they don't see him very often and haven't for almost 3 months now. They aren't really a part of our live, given his father doesn't have a thing to do with him or give a care about him and hasn't since day one, but it's still nice for them to see him every once and a while!

Meghann is coming on Tuesday, I've asked her to teach me her wonderful skill :: knitting :: I figured, it's useful, she's amazing at it, and it could help me pass time and I might really grow to love it. Meghann is a great person, I'm so lucky Chris has such an amazing sister!! Well, I guess I'll go get ready for Christopher to get here, only another hour! yay!

Loves!!

short nap = blog time

Joshua is down for a little nappy before his bedtime bottle, and since that doesn't happen often I figured I'd get on this! It's been so long I need to re-dedicate myself to blogging daily, or at least weekly, so I can keep this one going! It feels so good to get the days stresses off my back by writing them all down, or at least typing them. Things have just been so messy lately it's crazy! Joshua was born in June, but it still feels like it was just yesterday, and it's so hard to believe that next week he will be 6 months old, a whole half a year... wow. amazing how my little baby has grown into such a little man already!!

So Chris and I are moving in together! It's such a change, this one is for real... So the apartment is in Skowhegan, it's the one he's lived in for a while, and he did live there with his ex, but since she is all gone and we got rid of EVERYTHING that they shared, it can finally be ours. We've got a new couch, from his parents, a complete bedroom for Joshua that is going to be amazing once we've got everything moved from my parents house to here. We've got a sign up above the door in our bedroom "Always kiss me goodnight", we've moved the bed, found every last wedding invitation, and gotten rid of all the trash left behind. We're ready for the next chapter in our lives to begin and are more than thrilled that it involves eachother, and us being together!

He makes me smile like I've never smiled before, and he does so much for me that he doesn't ever have to! His family is amazing! His parents are so welcoming and loving and giving towards Joshua and I, they are overall just amazing people. They have showed nothing but respect and love for us since day 1 and that means so much! His sister, her husband and their kids are such special people to Joshua and I already. Their daughter loves to play with Joshua and hold him and show him things like toys and the tv, and their little boy is still trying to figure out who the baby is, but they are so great with him it doesn't matter! I love spending time with them! 

All in all, I'd say this has been a pretty amazing year, and 2008 has proven to be very special to me. I'm grateful for so much it's out of this world! Well, Joshua's waking up again, so I must go. More later!

loves!

Oh Life... 2008 is coming to a close!

Well! It's been 2 years, almost 3, I guess I'm slacking. Things have been going pretty well lately, so I guess I can't complain! Life has changed so much in the last 3 years, I never would have imagined I'd be where I am now!

I have an amazing son, Joshua Joseph, who was born on June 24, 2008! That's him up top there! He's such a ham, a precious little angel. I hardly have time to breathe these days, he takes up everything I have! I stay at home all day wtih him and wouldn't ask for anything more. I was working until He was about 4 1/2 months old, so a month or so ago I got done. I've enjoyed being home with him more than I've ever enjoyed anything in my life, watching him grow is such a gift. Saying that being a mom is life changing is an understatement, it's the most amazing thing life can give you! He's perfect and I love him!!

I also have the most amazing boyfriend, Christopher Robert! He owns my heart and soul and I couldn't ask for a better man to love me! He simply amazes me every single day. He is always there when I'm happy, always there when I'm sad, holds me when I cry and never lets go, even when we're apart. I can feel him taking care of me when he's at work, because he writes, calls, emails, everything possible to get us through a day away from eachother! We are so in love I honestly couldn't ask for anything more in this life. He is amazing with Joshua, which is a gift I could never repay him, since he isn't Joshua's biological father. Chris used to always say he didn't want kids, and that he was afraid of babies... but if anyone see's him with Joshua, they know that's a lie! He's an amazing daddy and we cannot wait to have another bundle of joy of our own [plan:: 2 years at most, too much age difference is no fun!].

Other than that, I guess I can start keeping up on this while the little man is napping and enjoying playtime in his walker / other such toys!